Looking back over the past year, a lot has changed with me and this blog and I’m not mad about it, it’s time to embrace those changes and give them some TLC.
It’s been a while, a very long while, sometimes life’s stresses get in my way and cloud my judgement which has had me doubting the direction of many things. One thing I did want to do when starting this blog, we’ll actually a few things were to: encourage people to wear whatever they feel like, encourage people to eat whatever they feel like, with a few other things in between. Most of all, I wanted to express who I am truthfully, and I’m not 100% sure I’ve been doing that – maybe that’s why there’s been a loss of inspiration to write on here?
The truth is, I’ve attained a bug, a bug called IDGAF (look it up) and I wasn’t sure what to do with it, but for now, I’m going to embrace it. I was getting so caught up in “stuff”, how “stuff” should look, what “stuff” I was writing about and are people bored of my “stuff” now? It’s literally like I woke up one morning and wondered why I was thinking what other people were thinking? Negatives upon negatives only produce more negatives and jeez, it was keeping me up at night, so I had to gather that “stuff” and throw it in the bin, ¡Adios!
I want this blog, my blog to reflect everything I represent, not what I think everyone thinks it represents. It’s all getting slightly confusing, I hope I’m making sense; distancing myself from all that in my head wasn’t hurting anyone but myself, I’m done with it and you should too.
Going back to the points I mentioned above, and I’ve had to ask myself a few things:
Do I wear whatever I want?
To a certain extent, yes I do. Am I always comfortable in what I’m wearing? Not always but I’m getting there. Since starting this blog, the way I wear clothes has changed, I can’t even bring myself to look at the begin stages of my Instagram without cringing (what the fuck was I doing, seriously?). Back then, there was a lot of picking clothes that I knew would fit, there wasn’t really a risk; it was all very “safe”. It’s funny that what I thought was “safe” back then, makes me feel so unsafe now – take chances people.
What I want to tell my fluffy friends and friends of all shapes and sizes is to: ditch the leggings and baggy clothing and add more denim, and more buttons, please.
Do I eat whatever I want to eat?
Hmm, this has definitely changed since the begin of this blog. I would say 83% of the time I’m watching what I eat, but food is supposed to be enjoyed so I always try to pack in as much flavour as I can. I don’t really find any food boring, I love all the good stuff and the bad; I’ve inherited my Dad’s palette in that sense and the cooking abilities from my Mum, combined is the ultimate foodie. I ALWAYS eat three meals a day and I cook pretty healthily but I don’t punish myself if Jake’s fried chicken is in the room – you feel me? I guess it’s all about a balance.
I want for this blog within the next year?
I want to take more pictures, and get more comfortable in front of the camera. I definitely want to work with more brands, as I feel I’ve really developed more since I’ve started wearing different styles of clothes.
I want to do more food stuff, make some exciting new recipes and learn new cuisines – get back to the basics of my blog. Every thing I make is self-taught so I would like to get stuck into some cooking classes for sure.
Earrings – Topshop
Pyjama Blouse – ASOS
Rings – Topshop
Jeans – Very
Sunglasses – ASOS
Handbag – Zara
Shoes – ASOS
How do you clear your mind and get yourself positive?